-LoNeLiiE DeRr ShA GeR-

2006-04-05T18:26:00.000-08:00

Update blog lerr...

Heehee...Hello...Long tym neber update muaii blog lerr worrs...Hmmm...Dono wad to update oso....

Todae iish muaii 2nd months wiid muaii hubby lerr....Ehh...euu all will scold miie siao riite...Haha...But wiid hiim can last until todae wif sho much quarrel iis already hen hao lerr...Heehee...

Sckool life sucks alot nehzx....Hatex sckool life...Tink of dropping sckool but ohrss...Muaii hubby don let miie drop he sae if i drop can no need to find him lerr...Sobx sobx....i of cos wan him nahx
sho hab to guai guai go sckool n study...haha...He beriie fierce derr....owaes scold miie if i nort in sckool....Hmmm...Like muaii father like tish....Oso mush thank him nahx...iif nort i oready drop sckool lerr....n_n

hmmm...okiie nahx...i stop here lerr....Buai Buai...

Xiiao Sha Zhu

2006-03-20T14:33:00.000-08:00

Update blog niao...

Todae quarrel wid him...A beriie big quarrel...He started to biie close wid angeline again lerr...He ownself sae go where wid whu mush tell him...End up he go where wid wu oso neber tell miie...I'm a person whu don listern to tt person when tt person bu zhi dong derr...even itsh a small little matter norhx..

I dono y she cry n huan dao moii boyfriend norhx...He sae gort other ppl there...Ya his brothers mahx...I neber sae aniting norhx....End up he sae one ting make miie shout at him n moii heart start pain....He sae i owaes listen to john...What the F**** Ish he the one telling miie tt he acc angeline derr norhx...

End up throw temper at miie derr ye shi ta...Wad the hell....I dono ish whose fault norhx...I onliie noe to him i beriie wu li qu niao...All miie!!!He dono hw much i mish him yet he still shout at miie...I mish him until wanna go crazy lerr...End up wu li qu niao derr ren shi wo bu shi ta...

Sad PiggLet

2006-03-14T03:53:00.000-08:00

Update blog lerr...

-13 March-

Todae i almost walk moii own road without him...Meaning...We almost B***K...Haiss...Well i dono all the while he gort tink of break be4...Yet he don wanna tell miie....He sae tt he don wanna B***K sho he chose nort to sae aniting...Hmmm...Well maybiie he realiie don wanna brk bahx...Or he still don wanna end tish relationship...I dono worx...I nw scared to lose him...Beriie Beriie Scared...Nw derr miie owae swan to see him...If neber see him lyk going to lose him anitime derr...Haiss...I maybiie dou xing lerr...

Hmmm...Maybiie bahx...I tell him if he don feel happiie at all jus stop hurting himself and end it...But he still sae he don wan...Hmmmm...Dono wanna sae him silly or nort...But lucky he neber gib up...Hehe...Thx...Wanna thx him alot norhx...n_n

-14 March-

Todae...Mish Him alot alot...hen xiang ta...But onliie can see for a few hrs...Dono shld biie happie or nort nehx...But i still feel lyk crying...Dono y nehx...Maybiie ish becos of ytd bahx...End up i still drop abit of tears...HahaxX...Silly bahss??Well tish ish miie worx...I dono nehss... Nw toking on the fone wif him n writing blog...Haha..He keep on nagging n nagging at miie asking miie to eat moii dinner...but i gort appetitide to eat worx...Den he sae ask miie go drink milk milk...Haha...

Dono nehx...I dono wanna go slp straight awae or nort nehx...Kekexx...Okiie nahx...I go drink milk milk lerr...Haha...Buai Buai....

2006-03-11T19:17:00.000-08:00

Update blog ler....

Hmmm...Jus pass moii 17 yr old b'dae...Hmmm...Oso normal passthis yr....Norting special...Haha...

Hmmmm...Owaes lyk tish derr...Well...tis yr recieve quite alot of present.....1 pooh bear 1 eyorh 1 bracelet 1 doggie...2 necklece...2 hong bao given by my parents...Hehe...Tish yr at least or kor n his gf n daddie mummie gort gib mii...Haha....

My bibi gib mii 1 pooh bear n 1 necklece....Hehe...Feel at least beta den last yr norhx....Tish yr kor kor n his gf n moii bibi acc mii pass moi b'dae...

We own self cook n eat ownself norhx...Haha...Abit of feeling xing fu nahx...Hehe...Well okie nahx...I stop here lerr...Buai Buai....

2006-03-06T22:40:00.000-08:00

Update blog lerr worss....

Hihi...Long tym neber update blog liao..Bz tish few daes....Bz wif sckool projects n work hardly gort tym to online write blog blog nehx...Hmmm...Well todae horss...Quarrel wid teacher...Toopid teacher...Treat mii transparent...Sick n tired of it lerr...

Well...I tell kor kor liao...Haha...Kor kor tmr go moii sckool shot teacher...Haha...Machine gun nehx...Hmmmm...Actualli...Thought of quitting sckool....Cos that teacher n sckool rules sux....Lyk sec sckool life....Haiss...What the hell toking descipline...End up teacher no gov derr....Sux...Haiss...Haiss....Hmmm....Well ash daes pass by...Mii n him lyk dono ish more loving or more cold nehx...Hmmmm...Well can sense distance lerr....Maybi i dou xin lerr bahx...Hmmmm...Don tink too much beta....Nite nite eberyone....I go orh orh niao...

Xiao Sha Zhu

2006-02-27T16:18:00.000-08:00

Update Blog lerr...

Todae i dono wad happen...Hao nan guo...He lie to mii...Well lucky i msg him...He den tell mii tat he went j8 n watch movie wid his friends..Think can oso noe whu lerr bahx...Well nort sure yet...N i didnt ask aniwae...Don wanna ask...I scared i ask ler...It turns out to bii mii e one wu sad...

I getting more n more unreasonable lerr...N start to don understand wads he doing....Yah...He become counseller...N mii???Jus a normal student in sckool...Nw it seems lyk we r 2 different world ppl....
---->.<---->.<---->.<---->.<----->.<---->.<---->.<---->.<---->.<---->.<

I dono shld i lesser his burden...Y?? Becos i tink he n his friends gort some problem abt dono wad oso...i tink lesser his burden by leaving him....Leaving can lesser his burden mahx?? I dono...I feel tat he hab change to nort last tym derr himself lerr....I dono e problem lies on wu...Mii bahx...Cos i being selfish n unreasonable...
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Alvin,

i wrote a letter for euu...Its in moii file....Well i hab e guts to wirte tis letter...Means i am prepared for eberyting...I nw crying alone...Hao tong ku.....Berii sad n heart break....I dono wad happen...I am nort wanting eur attention....Neither eur pity...If euu find it hard to get along wif mii...Can we jus end eberyting??? Don hurt each other deeper lerr can??? I noe euu will bii sad n yesh i willl bi sad too...Euu hab so much tinks to fan n euu still lto worried abt mii angry...Sad...N worried abt moii safety....Euu r tired don euu??? Find a ger tt cares for euu more bu hao mahx??? A ger tt can treat euu beta den mii....Care for euu more den mii....Euu go tink bahx...In the past i did norting at all norhx...I didnt care for euu at all....I treat euu sho sucks....Euu still wanna mii mehx???

I lurff euu....Tish ebery ger can sae to euu...Is it beri nice when eur love ones sae to euu??? But whan tt person is nort the ger euu lyk wad will euu do??? I can give euu 101 reason to leave euu....But i still insist to stay wid euu...But after tt i found out that euu hab alot of tings to stress....Sho i guess...I leave it to euu to decide whether to continue or break....Well...I scared of having nitemares...N ebery nite mares i hab is owaes i am the one wu die....Well it come true one dae???I dono....if yesh...i oso cnt stop tish tings to happen....

Xiao Sha Zhu

2006-02-22T22:03:00.000-08:00

Update Blog lerr worrx....

Hmmm...Todae ish jus a normal dae for mii...Early in the morning go sckool....Having pe...Slping in class....Toking n playing wid kor kor[Ben] and Xiao Di[Roy].....Haha...N of cos moii xiao Mei[Carol]N Curtain[Jerry]....Den after sckool i go bank to deposit money....

Of cos gort mit moii bibi nahx...Well todae bibi tell thomas tt Claris ask him y he chose mii but nort Yan Yan...Haiss....When will tish issue ends???I hab enurff lerr...If Yan Yan still lyk him den wad should i do???I cnt get to see bibi ebery hr although we are in the same campus...But she can...Cos they are in e same class....I realli dono norhx....I berii fan....Alwaes tish issue make mii n him gort norting much to tok abt....

Well i trust him...But i cnt accept Yan Yan to owaes bi the one beside moi bibi....Of cos i will jealous...Arghhhh.....Wo Hen Fan Nahx....Hw i wish i 24 hrs can owaes beside him....But i cnt....>.< I gib him his freedom to go out or play wid his friends but i dono y when he n Yan Yan or Angeline sho close i automatically jealous derr....Haiss....Hen Tong Ku nehx...He noe mahx????If he noe he will owaes ask mii don tink too much...hw nort to tink to much???He teach mii nahx...Y nort he become one dae derr wo...N i become one dae der ta...Let him get derr feeling of unsecure....See will he as much as mii mahx??Or will he treat it as norting happen at all???Haiss....

Well i wan to find someone to tok too nehx...but i dono whu to turn too...i berii fan...Hen fan nahx....

Xiao Sha Zhu

2006-02-20T19:33:00.000-08:00

Update moii Blog lerr.....

Todae moii bibi sad sad lerr....Out of sudden he sae he fan....N at the first place i dono aniting....I ask Thomas[His Bro] where ish he....He told mii tt he ish sick sho went home lerr....Den i start to call him...end up he neber pick up moii call...Den he mish called mii n i ask him wad happen????He said norting...Of cos i start to worried did i hurt his feeling again????I tot of going to find him...But he told mii he wan to slp...Sho i neber sae much...

End up den i noe he ish fan....And the first one whu wan to lend him a listen ear ish nort mii...Ish Yan Yan....Hao si bai derr wo....[>.<] I dono y i went to ask him wad type of ger he wan....He told mii mush bii good ger n bii good to parents...I almost cry out...Den i ask him again...Wad he find in mii....He said gort alot...Den i tell him...He find norting in mii...Cos i nort a good ger n i'm no good to parent....I'm jus good for norting.....Den moii tears start to run dwn....He told mii he scared to lose mii...N i said nort onlii euu...Mii too scared tat he leave mii....The more i say...The more i cry...Haiss....

Den he oso cry...I told him tt I rather i neber noe them at all....N even if noe i oso hope tt Yan Yan will ask mii to get awae frm Him...But end up she expect mii to treat him good...N mush dote him...I dono wad n how to do...I said tt i rather i walk awae frm their life...But dono y i still wan to step into their life n make his life sho miserable....Haiss...Sorrie bibi...I make euu worry...I make euu sad...All bicos of moii childish n xiao qi.....

I scared to lose euu...Don leave mii....I don wan moi dream to come true....No pls....Love euu owaes...

Xiao Sha Zhu <3 Bibi

2006-02-19T21:36:00.000-08:00

UpDate Blog lerr....

Hmmmm....Todae ardx....Hmmmm...Norting much norhx....Haha...RAimi kor kor buy mii a doggie...Den he ask mii go all e wae to Changi Airport...Haha...Of cos i go nahx...He owe mii eyorhx!!!!

End up i buy doggie cos Eyorh berii dirty....Haha...Hmmm...Btw bibi went home lerr....Haiss....Hao xiang ni worx....Owaes lyk tish derr...Hen sianx norhx....Haiss....Well mii n bibi okiie lerr....Is i dou xing nahx....N xiao Xing yan....I will change derr....

Hmmm....Moii studies nort bad norhx....Still can cope....Haha...N moii job ardx....I finally graduate lerr.....Frm Paradiz centre...Nw attach to westmall lerr...Tues start work lerr worx....Haha...No tym for moii bibi liao...Sorrie nehx....But i sure to squeeze out tym derr nahx....Haha...I dono when will euu see moii blog...But jus write nahx horx....Hmmm...If euu wanna write oso can nehx...Haha...ask mii for id n password...

Hmmm....Well....Tmr gort skool...Somemore kor kor wanna use com lerr....So i hab to stop...Nite nite readers....Hab a nice dream worx....>.<

Xiao Sha Zhu >.<

2006-02-16T13:16:00.000-08:00

Update Moii Blog Lerr....

Hmmmm...Todae iish a dono wad dae for mii...I dono whu to believe n whu nort to believe...Moii head pain n heart ish heavy....

Todae go sckool for 1 1/2 hr den go hoome lerr...Nort i run awae worx...Ish todae first hr no lesson...Den second hr..Teacher gort no mood to teach den let us go early...Cos alot of ppl neber cum to sckool...

After moii class i went to moii locker...N i sasw ruyee...Den ruyee ell mii moii stead make her fall down...I ask her wad happen...Den she sae moii stead dono for wad throw tings at her den she go chase him....Den fall dwn...Tish ish wad i hear from her...I msg moii stead....I ask him ish it true....Den nw comes e second story...Moii stead sae....Ish ruyee go beat him den they run then she fall herself derr...

Nw...Euu readers tell mii whu shld i believe???Euu All tell mii nahx...Y ruyee gort no reason to beat him...N y moii stead no reason wanna disturb her???Well ii use to see moii stead disturbing gers in front of mii....Is already a numb ting for mii ler...He promise mii derr all forgotten lerr....Den for wad he wan to promise mii????Nw den i noe wad tish sentence mean lerr...[ Promise are meant to bii broken ]

I dono whu to believe n whu nort too....I berii tired ardx....Y at the first place i chose to bii wid eu??When i can bii all alone???N y at the first place euu chose mii when euu can choose Yan Yan instead???

I dono...Realli dono...Eberytym euu played wid gers...Did euu tink be4 moii feelings???Did euu??I am a human wid blood n feelings...I told eu moii head pain moii heart heavy...I cnt feel ani sense of concern from euu....Euu ask mii to rest at home...I tot euu no point cos no matter hw much i rest the Fan Niao won go awae...Euu jus don care...

Euu ask mii wads wrong wif mii???I jus wanna sae i oso dono wads wrong wid mii....Wad i hab done wrong to make euu owaes play wid gers????Y nort euu tell mii wads wrong wid euu???Y mush euu owaes gib those "surprise" to mii???One dae i will fall dwn derr....I realli donno wad to do lerr...Euu promissh mii....But euu did the other wae round...Euu wanna mii to trust euu???Den whu come n trust mii???Euu sae euu Zhuan Yi....Hw to believe???

I wish to gib euu one more chance to prove to mii....But i scared all that "SURPRISE" will cum...I dono...Reallii dono...I shldnt hab step into eur life sho soon...I shldnt hab...

Xiao Zhu

2006-02-15T22:55:00.000-08:00

UpdAtE BlOoGy LeRr...

Hmmm...Jus finish moii work.....N reach home lerr....Hmmmm....Haiss...Hao xiang ni worx....Haiss....

Todae yan yan tok to mii....Abt Alvin...We tok tings out...She sae tt all of them[Alvin friends] all don understand y he chose mii....Including her...Well..i oso don nehx...He chose mii for wad???Yan Yan is a beta ger den mii...Her figure her looks n her Character...All beta den mii...Y he chose mii???Well i wanted to ask derr but horx...Make the all situation berii kang ka....Sho ish best tt sae norting beta...

Hmmm...Tmr go sckool at 1015 haha...Finally can wake up late late liao....Haha...Haiss...I told euu guys i didnt do ani of moii project rite...Nw oso haben touch nehx....Haiss...Hen sianx...All group project...Then moii group members all ai mai ai mai derr...Hen sian...Den i follow them ai mai ai mai derr norhx..Haha...

Hmmmm....Ytd derr Valentine dae okiie okiie nahx...Nort bad nahx...quarrel onlii...norting derr..haha....Funni worx...Ppl happi happii...We face long long black black derr....Heeeee....>.<

Okiie nahx... i stop here ler....Buai buai...Moii kor kor wanna bite mii lerr....Haha.....He nw beside mii niam non stop...Lyk techno lyk tish.....HAha...Nonstop hit....

Xiao Sha Zhu

2006-02-14T14:05:00.000-08:00

UpDaTe BlOoG LeRr....

Happii VaLentine dae to all couples....Hmmmm...Long tym neber update moii blog lerr....Haha...Confirm Bz wid sckool tings n working tings....

Now adaes derr test alot alot worx....Haiss.....Hen sianx n shiong....Haha...Tmr habing CUR test...Fridae habing REO test....Gort three project haben do yet....One is SES another one ish EFC den one more is THS....Kao....ALmost habing white hair liao....Haha...Mii nort so weak derr....Kekex....

Haiss...Hao sianx...Now in class....Last lesson teacher ask us to come com lab do survey...End up i do moii blog...Haha...Cos i forget moii password mahx...Haha...Den no choice Use bloggies.....Haha.....Now Teacher nort in class.....Den use den type...HAha...Den she come in oso berii BZ....No tym entertain us....Den i entertain moii sef...Good ger nehx...Haha.....

Well mii moii bibiokiie nahx...Nort bad norhx...The most ish jealous until sort sort der....He lyks to play wid ger ger derr...Sae liao....Listern for few daes dden come back to the same old pattern again...Now iish nort mii flirt...But ish he bahx...Haiss....Make sure he realli can auto....I cnt tolerate aniting derr....But i tolerate him more then moii limite liao...Haiss...I owaes use a smile to tai guo ebery sad tings...No point saying out ash its jus a waste of tym...

I change to bii a understanding ger lerr....trying to understand him more by giving him more freedom...End up....I don wanna see him take it for granted....I sure to fong diao derr....Well....Zou yi bu shi bu lerr....I maybe will bii happy maybe won bii happy lerr.....See tish tym round nahx....Haiss...Okiie nahx....Dono wad to sae lerr....I stop here lerr nahx...Buai Buai....

Xiao Sha Zhu <3>

2006-02-06T22:49:00.000-08:00

Dae 2

Hmmm...Todae fall sick again lerr...Haix...Tat toopid medicine eat liao make moii eyes swallon lyk golden fish.....Hais....Sad nehx...

Den end he ask mii to stop taking the medicine...Hmmm....Now at home...Going to fall slp again...Haben go wash hair...Cos i plae wid e hair dye....Moii friend dye hair den i ask them to help mii oso...Haha....Wash liao...But he wan mii to wash again....Haha...

I dono wad else to write....But jus wanna sae....MISH EUU!!!

Xiao SHa Zhu

2006-02-05T23:04:00.000-08:00

UpdaTe BlOog LeRr...

]]Dae 1 for EuU n Mii[[

Hmmm...Ytd go work...Tmr oso Work....Hais...Sianx....6.30 to 9.30...
Abit late nahx...But horx...Onli trainig so neber mind....

Todae go shopping wid mummie n hubbie they all.....Hmmm...Nw going to slp niao....Hmmm...Todae write abit first....Tmr den continue
Nite nite..MUack...

Xiao Sha Zhu Mish Hubbie

2006-02-02T13:31:00.000-08:00

UpDaTeE BlOoGiiE LeRr

Hmmm...Berii long i neber update moii bloggie lerr....Hmmm...Finally bck in skol n study lerr....Well...Fall Sick of cos...Bck from Korea....

Todae early in the morning norting happen reach skool liao fever come....Den stil gort surprise test for moii SES....Haix...Sure to fail...Cos i cnt get to rmb aniting....Cos i headach n quite sick....Eberyone ask mii to go bck...But i insist to stay in skool...Cos i mish too much lesson lerr....I tell moi friends i die die oso mush pass....But now...Haix...Wana to pass oso berii difficult liao....I don wana lyk last tym...Regret for nort studing....SO i put moii heart into moii lesson....Nw...Seems lyk going to fail anitym....Haix....

Well....Went to korea for 8 daes.....N nw i am bck....Korea gort alot shops....N all e ppl there are nice nice cute cute n shuai shuai derr....Haha....Of cos i do buy someting back for moii friends n peiqi jie jie n toy toy.....But i forget ah yi...Haha...Don scold mii nehx....

Btw...Mii nw in skol typing out notes...Type half wae berii sianx den come to moii blog....HermpXx...No one sae mish mii derr....So bad....Mii MIA no one care derr...HAha...Joking ardx....Well...Guys HAppy CNY....Gong Xi Fa Cai....n...Hong Bao Na Lai....Haha....BLeax...

Okie nahx...Bck to typing notes lerr....Don write lerr...LAta cnt gib bck moii friend derr file i will bii chope into half ardx....HAha...Buai Buai

\\ Xiao Sha Zhu //

2006-01-22T13:22:00.000-08:00

UpDatE MoOii BlOoGiie LeRr....

21 Dec
Hmmm...ee sat realii spent in a damn sian wae...Haixx...Spent moii whole morning in Simei ITE...

Y ii go there???Ish becOos ii go CCA...Dancing....Whe...ee skol damn big....Den we lost our wae in tt Simei ITE...We late for quiet long cos of ee place....Den after ee dance iish lyk around 11 plus...

Actualli ii was lyk going to ParkLane to join Chai gek they all in kbox...But iits too far lerr....Den they onlii sing till lyk 2 pm....Den iif ii go iish a waste of moii tym n moii trip....So ii decided to go out wid WeiJin they all...We went East Point Mall to shop anihw...But after awhile we go yishun....ii didnt spent money...ii onlii spent money in eating...

Haiss... Moii onlii free tym iish nw sat n sun...But sun will hardly go out cos berii tiring ardx....Mon still need to wake up early....Hmmmm....Cnt make it ardx....Hmmm...Start skol liao oso sianx...Den wad nort enuff slp oso hab...Eberydae after skol damn shag norhx...Haiss....Tired out....Okiie nahx....ii Stop here lerr...Buai Buai....

Xiao Sha Zhu....Oink Oink

2006-01-20T20:49:00.000-08:00

UuPdAtEe BlOoGiiEe LeRr....

Hmmm...Todae norting much to sae onli can sae ii still dao ke yi....Cum mans...Moii stomach pain for 3 full daes...Cry ardx....First tym so poor ting....Hmmm...Todae at ee last lesson ii almost fall aslp....Somemore ee class damn hot norhx....Cnt make it derr nehx....

Hmmm...Norting much...But ii admire one guy...End up kana reject sad diao ke yi nehx....But well ii respect his explaination...So iish okiie...Somemore we r from different world...He can study derr...I nehx....ITE ger hw can???To a poly guy or JC guy they oso don wan nahx....

Hmmm....So ii let it bii....Don disturb him...I nort mean tt ii will avoid him but iitsh jus let him concentrate on wad he wan to do....N nort stopping him...ii noe whu he lyk [[ i guess ]]...Ish ii jus crash on him jus lyk tish...Silly mii....Well neber mind nahx...Eberyone will hab their silly tym....Hmmmm....Dono nehx....Dono wad to do nw...wanna find one boi boii oso sianx...Don wan to find oso sianx...All ii find one all gort stead derr...More sianx...Haha...Owaes so sianx derr wo....Sou bu niao wei.....Haha....Okiie nahx...ii stop here lerr...Buai Buai...

Xiao Zhu

2006-01-19T00:11:00.000-08:00

Hmmmm...ToOdae ardx...AT least gort tok to 5 to six 6 classmates norhx...2 iish guys... Well finalli...They noe tt i'm around....Haha....Well...Todae tired nahx...

ii eberydae tired derr...Haha...Hmmm...Norting much of ee dae nahx...Tok crap n sliiping iin class norhx....Sam pro-ci-dear....Same old pattern iin sec....Haiss...Hao sianx ardx....N hen lei....Tmr need to wake up earlii cos skol start early....Kan sianx norhx....Den some more moii skirt bring to orter...Den too late to go collect...ee aunty close shop liao....Sian diao...Cnt wear uniform....Hab to wear hse clothing...Machim lyk poly students....Haha...Lame ii noe....But....ii reallii dono hw to sae nehx....Moii daes are passing in such a sian manner...Cnt help it norhx...

Haiiss....Miish moii friends alot....Hmmm...Hao xiang ni men....Haiss...too bad sat need to go cca...iif nort ii sure go k box wid them derr....Haiss....Last tym outing lerr....Nxt tym yao oso cnt lerr...ii will bii bz wid moii skol tings lerr....Hen sian ardx...Okie nahx...ii wan orh orh lerr....Nite NIte...

Xiao Sha Zhu

2006-01-17T19:10:00.000-08:00

我比想象中爱你
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飞的越远越看不见
你阳光下灿烂的笑脸
在天跟海之间那条界线慢慢的走远
你曾经是我的地平线
你有没有一点想念
我们一起去年的夏天
有种爱的感觉在心里面那么的强烈
而这一切好象只是昨天

我才发现我比想象中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静我诚实的分析我自己
还是不可否认地
我比想象中爱你

兰花掠过沙滩变静
我又看见我们的脚印
如果遇见幸福的机率有千万分之一
不顾一切也要找回你

我才发现我比想象中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒
还是不可否认地
我比想象中爱你

终于发现我比想象中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了
你每当夜深人静我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒
还是不可否认地我比想象中爱你
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Tiish song iish 4 a guy tt hab stay iin moii heart sho long....Well ii didnt realli can recall hiis face....Hiis face iish getting more n more blur....Does tiish means tt ii gort no more feelings for him?? Can ii chose to sae "No??" ii don wanna forget him...ii miish hiim...Reallii miish hiim...Tiish song iish for hiim...Hopefullii euu will get to hear it...
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Well todae iish moii sec dae of skol....Quite sianx norhx....Cos sec dae of orentation...Den iitsh lyk ebery ting cums to ee end...ii mean ee fun...Well ii sho lonelii nehx....Nobody to tok to derr...All guys aim those cute cute n chio chio derr gerr gerr...N ii'm those out of their expectation derr norhx...So cnt get to noe ani friends yet....Quite siianx nahx...Cos whole dae neber realli tok...ii ping jun one whole dae tok less den 100 words norhx...
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After skol den tok to angeline ruyee Wei jing n one more guy tt ii cnt rmb his name...Tt iish nort frm moii class....iish other class derr....iish angeline they all derr friend...Hmmm..Tmr need to buy uniform lerr....N need to hand iin $50 for ee paper....Kao...ii rather ii take mummy store derr paper...Haha...But iish notes nahx...Sho cnt bii blame bahx....Hmmm....ii so sainx iin skol....No one to tok too derr...Argh...Siian nahx....
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I miish sec skol life....Wid chai gek they all...Much more then wid ne those mute, deaf, n tao ppl tok beta....Haha...Nw nort ii fussy...iish they horx...Don sae ii toa nehx...ii damn friendly derr.....Keke...
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Hmmm...ii stop nw lerr...ii guess too long liao....Haha...Buai Buai....
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+Xiao Zhu Zhu+

2006-01-16T18:21:00.000-08:00

UuPpDaTeE BlOoGgiiE LeRr....

Todae berii tiired....Fiirst dae of skol...All type of speech lahx...games lahx....HaiiSs..Lyk Sec skol students norhx....Berii tiired nahx...Cnt make iit derr....ee skol berii dirty...Hmmmm...Siian yi ban....

Den ii tot ee class rm all gort aircon...End up onlii music rm n those blah blah Special rm den gort norhx....Damn Hort norhx...Hort n tiired....Almost fall aslp iin class....But neber....Cos we go class see teacher n take those study tings den go lerr....Kao....Hen Wu Liiao...Eberyone msg mii askiin mii hw skol todae....Moii onlii reply iish....Boriing....Realli mahx....Berii ee boriing norhx...Somemore mii n ee class friends don tok der...Tiish yr will bii ee most quiet yr iin skol....HaiiSs...Hen siianx n tired...Tmr gort another round of Orentation...Berii derr saiinx...Don feel lyk goiing nehx....But ii dono nehx....Owaes so sian....HAiiss....

Todae hen shag...N hen tired...Cnt make it derr...Okiie lahx...Stop here...Buai Buai

Xiiao MiiLoO

2006-01-15T10:46:00.000-08:00

UuPdaTeE bLoOg LeRr

[[14 jan]]

Todae we go parklane again..Tiish tym round wid wendy jie n Alex....Well....We plaed quite alot of round...Cos wee hab 3 tables...1 ish jie xian n wendy play...den ee rest iish we play derr....So iitsh quite aberii fast game...Hmmm..Quite fun nahx....Nel Lose to mii....Kok wei oso...but ii lose to chai gek n Alex...Wait...Alex iish nort pro horx...He begiiner...More sianx yi ban....he oso berii silly...Berii ez to pian derr....Haha...

ii take pic wid wendy jie...Chai gek n hui kit...N mii moiiself...Haha..Zhao Zi lian...Den i bo liao dao..take ee pic of green tea pepsi nescafe n limeade ee pic....Haha...Sian diao...

Nel sick ler...But he still join us go out...Wha liao he look lyk will faint anitym...Haha...So ii sae..."Nel don faint horx...iof nort still need to call ambulance..Berii ma fan"ii berii bad horx....Haha..ii oso tink so nehx...

Well...He tissue king nehxx....All ee wae ask for tissue...Haha..Den gort no chioce..ii go buai tissue for him...Haha...After tt ii left tt place lerr...Cos Chia gel cnt go hm late..So mii,wendy n chai gek go hm ourselves without ee boiis...ii oso gort no idea wad tym they go hm....ii reach hm...Den recieve nel derr msg..Saying thx to mii....Thx for ee tissue...Haha...Den ii fall deeply aslp...

[[15 Jan]]

Tmr go skol ler...HaiiSs....Dono shld happi or wad nehx...No one same class ash mii..ANgeline mummy go IOD...Ruyee go IOC..ii go IOA....Hen Siianx derr....So ii so lonely after all...haha...Siian diao...Hmmm..Hopefully...ii can hab a friend inside bahx...HaiSs..Gort northing to sae nehx...Onlii can sae...ii goiing shoping...Haha...Wiid moii Another cute jie jie..haha...Chubby chubby derr....Hen cute ardx...haha...Buai Buai...

\\Xiao ZHu//

2006-01-13T10:31:00.000-08:00

UuPdAtEe MoOii BlOoGgiiEe LeRr

Todae derr blogg posted early....CoOsS ii gOort nOo prOogramme mahx....Den stay at hm rot..Which ii hab been lyk tiish for Almost 16 yrs lerr....Well...ii'm jus plainly too lazy...Lazy to move...Lazy to go out...Lazy to tok....LAzy tiish Lazy tt...TiisSh iiSh juSs mii...Haha...

Funnii bahx...ii quite a hyper active ger but jus becos ii gort alot of lazy bones....So make mii becum berii inactive...Basically...ii'm jus crappiing around...Hey...Todae iish fridae derr 13 worx...Wiish ebery couples gd luck...Dun bii too mii xiing kk....Wad else ii wanna sae????Duno..Keep crapping here bahx...Since ii soo boo liao...

Nw free much more relax lerr....Cos ii didnt care much abt lurff lurff ting..ii care more abt moii skol tings...Ytd ii bought one set of office dressing frm tish fashion...Spent $40.50 on one set norhx...Kor kor pay for mii...ii wear lerr...Euu noe wad...ii look too mature...But ee clothes berii nice...Knee length skirt n pink long slive top...No choice...Cos nort much whit shirt there...End up iish pink...Well wear tt office dressing...ii seems to grow up alot alot nehx...So nw mush bii mature worx...Mush bii more shu nu lerr...If nort sure cnt make it lerr...Haha...For ee tym being ii guess...Keke...

Hmmm...Berii fast goiing skol reopen lerr....Ard 2 more daes???Ya...ii tiink soo....Hmmm..Cnt reallii slack alot lerr...Haha...Hmmmm...Nw ii liong liao..[[no money]]Haiiss wanna go out oso sianx yi ban....HaiiSs....Okiie nahx..ii go bath liao...Gooiin out wiid angeline...Go skol pay skol fees...Haha...Den cum bck hm slck again lerr...Hehe...Buai Buai

//XiiaOo Zhu\\

2006-01-12T15:22:00.000-08:00

UuPdAtEe MoOii BlOoGgiiEe LeRr

HiHi...Hmmmm...Todae juss wanna use diiferent wae of font to wriite moii bloggie....ii dono will iit bii berii difficult to see or nort...Cos ii haben see ee result....
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[[11 Jan 06]]

Todae Wei hao called mii...Haiiss...SOo wad he called mii...we chat nort much but abt hiis graduation At Simei...He sad he didnt score well....N gort no other wae but to go higher nitec...All ii can do iish to wiish hiim all ee best norhx...At least can study...N he can oso up poly frm there...SoO all ee best bahx....

Lyk i sae...We didnt chat much cos his pen pal called him...N eberytym she called him he will put dwn moii fone...Hmmm...at first ii nort so heart break but after ii noe itsh a she...N tt pen pal admire him...Moii heart jus shuttered iinto pieces...Haiiss...Feel lyk crying....But moii tears keep dropping....i dono y....He ask him alot of tym...ii no longer admiire him lerr mehx...ii keep saying no...Jus to make him feel beta end up ii still cnt run awae...End up he found out tt ii don stead becos of him...Haiiss...ii guess ii hab to go find one stead to get awae frm tiish matter bahx....Silly ii noe...But aiyahx ii dono nahx...Fiinally fall for a guy tt ii lyk but end up...ii feel so tong ku...Same ash ee pain ii lurv Froggie...Hmmmm...ii guess...ii am realli silly to fall for guys bahx...
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Abiit of siianx...Berii siianx nehx...SoO loOnely...Okkiie nahx....ii stop here bahx...KKxx....Tmr den ii write somemore....

2006-01-10T11:21:00.000-08:00

UuPpDaTeE mOoOii BlOoGgiiE LeRr

HiiSs...Todaae berii earlii wriite bloggiie....Cos lata goiing out wiid Nel dey all to play pool...HaiiSs...Going start skool soon lerr....Soo enjoy ee last tym....Hey jiie doon yell at mii again lerr horx....

Well dono y horx....ii feel moii bloggiie berii sad....ee bckground n ee song....HaiiSs...Lyk tiish gd bahsS....Nw no stead ii oso sad...Gt stead ii oso sad...Y mii foreva sho sad derr huh???Haha....hmmm...ii don understand moiislef nehx...Hw huh???Whu understand mii???Y out of sudeen ii don understand moiiself animore???iiSh iit becos ii nt being moiiself too long lerr???Or ii am avoiding moii ownself??? Feel sho hopeless...Mii berii useless nehx....No wonder no one lurv mii...HaiSs...Maybii nt long iin future ii will evapourate iin tiish world nehx???ii dono nehx....

Hmmm...Todae abit of wu liao...Sho ii wrote wu liao tings...Don blame mii for being wu liao hao mahx???Eberyone will sad derr mahx...Yesh mii out of sudeen feel sii lian derr gan jue...Hao shang xing worx.....Hen lonelii nehx.....ii don wanna disturb jie jie so neber msg....HaiSs...Going to start skol lerr hard to squeeze tym out to go out when skol reopen lerr....Hmmm....Will miish alot of moii friends derr...Cos cnt go out wid them...Onlii can study n study...HaiiSs..ii noe alot of pl will sae tt ITE don need to study derr...But moii aim iish to go poly derr mahx....SoO need too study hard hard to go poly derr....No more playing liao...

Hmmmm...Okie nahx....ii Stop here lerr...Buai Buai...Although iish short but still can nahx....Don Blame mii yehx....

Xiao Zhu

2006-01-09T14:59:00.000-08:00

UpDaTtEe mOoOii BlOoGgiiEe LeRr.....

HiiXx....Hmmm...Todae...iish a berii cOold dae woOrsS.....Hmmm..mush wear more clothes nehx...DoOn lata shivering nehx.....Mii derr hand damn cold norhx...Hw i wiish ii gt a stead nw beside mii giiving mii all ee warmth....Hehe...Childish tinking...Bt aniwae ii jux lyk tish type of mii...Owaes staying in moii dream.....

Hw euu find moii blog?????Hui kit help mii change moii song...Haha..Luck gt him ardx...iif nt ii cry...cos ii just destroy iit....Den hui kit help mii save it back....Haha...Hao cai stil can save iif nt ii oso dono wad to do lerr....Well Ediie chat wid mii on msn lerr...Den he sae ee past still haunt him....ii feel guilty....Realli berii guilty....ii make him suffer so much...But ii cnt help him....ii am in ee fault....ii am jus a slut n bitch.....Haiiss....Nw he found hiis happiness yet our past still fan him so much....Y???Y lyk tish???Shldnt mii bii e one wu suffer cos ii do nhab ani happiness????

HAiSs...Sorrie...Sorrie Eddie...Berii sorrie ii hurrt euu too much...hen bo qian....ii wiill leave euu far far derr...won make euu suffer animore lerr......but iif euu sad sad...can call mii n tell mii bahx...moii fone iish 24 hrs der....But ii guess eu won hab sad daes derr nahx...eu n pearl so gd...Soo...ii guess euu won need it der....Hehe....Well take kaiire moii friend...Enjoy eurself...Get hold on to eur relationship nehx....Wad iish past jus let iit past bahx....Don tink of iit lerr.....No use derr...iit won turn bck derr.....Euu n miii iish totalli different world person....Soo...Take kaire nehx...

ii guess ii stop here bahx...Soo cold...HAnd hao leng....So ii stop here lerr....Buai baui....

Xiao Zhu

2006-01-08T14:04:00.000-08:00

UuPpdaTe mOoOii BlOoOgiiEe LeRr...

Jus nw Out of curiousity i went to eddie's blog...N ii click on ee month ii brk up wid him....ii read iit....HaiSs...Nw den ii noe ii am so childish....N ii hab create so much trouble for him...tink bck ee past....He kana beat buai Xiao matt n colin....haiss....ii noe iish oready a past....n ii don mean to sae aniting abt it but jux wanna sae out.....

Eddiie....
ii am sorri...reallii sorrii....All e brk up story iish ii bluff euu der.....ii don wanna see euu kana beat up by them so ii make up ebry story to bluf euu....Nw euu hab eur dear dear lerr...ii don wanna to disturb euu n her...soo ii guess iitsh best tt ii deleted awae eur no....

ii'm sorrie fofr moii childish tt cos euu sad....ii'm sorrie for moii ren xing tt make eu cry....[[Yan lei der weii dao]] iish our past bt hope tt it won interupt eur relationship nw....

When ii totalli single ii gt no guts to tell euu...Cos ii scared tt euu hate mii....Bt nt long ii heard tt euu n pearl jie stead lerr....Den more ii shldnt do aniting but to bless ee both of euu....Take kaiire worx....Hopefulli eur wedding ii will bii invite nehx....

Wei Hao....
i hab fan euu so long lerr...itsh tym for mii to let go lerr...ii dono iif euu will bii able to see moii blog or nt but jus wanna let euu noe tt ii won wan to fan ni ler....ii noe eur feelings nw...Well ii guess ii too young lerr....Sure to hab some communication brk dwn derr....LAst tym we use to tok alot..but nw...itsh totally diff lerr....We gt nth to tok abt animore lerr....ii won blame anione for cosing tish ting bt ii will blame moiiself....For being such a burden....Sorrie yehx....

Well nw ii hab said out eberyting...iish tym for miito get a totally change over....So sick of being lyk tish...ii nw wan to find a new mii lerr.....So tt no one will hate mii....Kk.....ii stop here ler...buai buai....

Xiao Zhu

2006-01-07T22:34:00.000-08:00

HiXx...Hmmm...After long dae Oof waiitiin fOor mOoii Bed n CarbOoard...HaiiSs...FiinaLlii ee tOopiid tiing cum....iish ard 7 plUusS nOorHsS...Half dead liaOo...After all ee cleaniing..ii waSs toO tiired tOo gOo Oout fiind nelsOon they all lerr...

HAiiSs...Reallii berii tiired nehSs...ii clean mOoii rm 2 toO 3 daeSs lerr...LoOl....ii Berrii [[yOong xiing]] nehSs....YoOng Xiing DaOo yaOo Sii diiaOo lerr.....HaiiSs...ii am oOwaeSs derr Oone wUu sii Sheng alOot....End up ii gt nOotiing iin return.....HaiiSs....DoOn wanna AsSk 4 huii bOo beta....Hehe.....

Nw moOii eyeSs aniitym can clOose liiaOo...HaOo leii.....

OoHh YaHhxX....ToOdae...ee Wilfred call mii...TiiSsh guy iish a plae bOoii nOorhx...Wha KaOo mii sOo ugly stiill cum fan mii.....Sae wanna jiiOo mii...PlSs nOorhSs..ii wOon accept anii plae bOoii lerr...iitsh enuff....ii scared lerr.....HaiiSs...Well...HaOo beta....Prefer hiim mOore...Keke....OoppSs....DoOn sae Oout nehx....iif nt ii shy shy....Haha....Ookiie nahxx....ii stOop herr lerr.....Buaii Buaii...

XiiaOo ZhuU

2006-01-06T17:22:00.000-08:00

[U]pdate [B]lOogiiEe [L]eRr....

HiiXx....Nw at Kit hSse....Haha....All Oof them playing PoOker....Haha...Then mii Ooutt of ee game...Haha...Luckii mii nt iin...Chai gek kana bully by Kit n Nel....Haha....They plae tai di....AloOt oOf noise...Haha...Nel keep Oon saeing [[Sii Beii HoOt]] Haha...Hiiss koOu toOu zian liiaOo nahx...BoO liaOo derr yaOo sii.....Haha...

Hmmm...Well jus nw at hm clearing moii rm...KaOo....Nw moOii rm tOok oOsOo gtt echOo....Haha....Beerii ee kOong nOorhx....SoOme mOore...Ebery tiing ii all chang in mOoii living rm....ToOnite sure kana scOold derr nehx....Sure sae ii make her liiviing rm messy derr nehx...Actually ii was tiinkiing tt ii slp in e liiviing rm todaae derr...But hoOrx...Don wana nahx...ii wiill miish mOoii rm derr....SoO ii goO bck tOo mOoii rm n Oorh Oorh beta.....

HaiiiSs...SsoO siianSs...They plaae n dOonOo wu wiin wu lOose OosoO gtt alOot Oof nOoiiSse derr....Beta ii blOog lOong lOong den nOo need tOo plae....Haha....Haiiss....See them nw slackiin hOors lata 'O' lvl den can see them lyk [[maii tOou ku kan]] Haha....Mii Stiil gt alot daes den skool reopen derr....SoO sianss nehx.....DoOnOo hw tOo spend mOoii dae nehx...SoO sianss n slack.....Den dOo alOot Oof bOo liaOo tiing tOo entertaiin mOoiiSself...Haha tiiSsh iiSsh mii nehx....

KkSs...ii stOop here lerr...Buaii Buaii

.+.+.XiaOo Zhu.+.+.

2006-01-05T17:03:00.000-08:00

[u]pdate [m]Ooii [b]lOog [L]eRr

Well...ToOdae mahSs...Sslackin at hm again lerr...Haha...Cos all moii friiend go skool liao den mii....Pai kia neber go skool...Haha...No nahSs...Mii waiit for moii skool to reopen nahSs...Mii study ITE mahSs...So haben skool reopen....Siian yi ban...Haha....

Hmmm...Moii dae yi tian yi tian derr guo...HaiiSs...ii tiink of euu....Yesh ii miish euu....Bt he juss won noe...We are no longer friend...So...theres nth between us lerr...Yesh tt guy iish Froggy....ii dono y ii mush mish him n nt other else....Haiis too lonely ler bahx...No boii boii for mii to miish...Haha....Well ii tell ee truth to Hao tt ii lyk him n in e end ii make him confuse...iish moii fault....ii won irritate him futher so ii guess..Make less contact beta....He can find a beta ger in future...Sorri to irritate him....Berii sorrie...

Haiis...nw waiting for a no ans ting ii oso berii sianx....Beta go by moiiself bahx...ii don wait lerr....ii set him free so tt he won bii so tired..ii set him free ii oso set moiiself free....Beta bahx....Eberyone gt their own happiness lerr....But mii???Hmmm...ii lyk single....Single beta...Hehe...Nth...ii'm okiie....Berii derr okiie....No worrie....

[[X]]iao[[Z]]hu

2005-12-31T22:51:00.000-08:00

.+.+. 1sSt JaAnN 2006 .+.+.
* 3:25 pm *

[[ UuPpDaTiiNnG BlLOoG LeEr]]

Hihi...Happii new yr tOo all mOoii friienSs Oout there....Tym fly realliii berrii fast worSs....SoO fast 2006 cums n ytd was ee last dae of 2005....Well sOo manii tiings happen iin 2005....Nw iit b cums mOoii past, mOoii hiistory....

Ytd [[31 dec 2005]]...

Ytd [[Nel]] [[Kok wei]] [[Ah kit]] [[William]] [[Chai Gek]] [[Yi lun]] [[guo Rong]] [[Jie Xian]] n [[mii]] went to Marina Bay too eat steamboat....First eberyone miit at semb...Den we go dwn together..Mii n Chai Gek went to Sp to mit Nel den after tt kok wei n Jie Xian came to SP....Wha liao ii plae one Rock fever they plae dono hw mani rounds of KOF norhx...They all challenge each other...Hmmm...Play untill lyk no need $$....Den after tt we walk to mrt station to mit Ah Kit n William...Went we walk out of SP...Hmmm..Guess wad? Outside iish raining so heavily...But neebr ming no wind so won get berii wet....Den we sae Kit n William All wet...Haha...We laugh at them...

Haha...Nw eberyone mit up lerr..We go take mrt go Summerset mit Guo Rong... Cos he go church lerr den mit up wid us...After tt Cos YiLun be4 tt actually wanna go PS derr...But end up he neber go lerr...When we reach Doby Gout YiLun sae he reach lerr den we all plae plae sae good bye to him...Wu noes...He actually tot tt wee don wana him to go wid us...Then he walked awae...HaiiSS...We went all e wae dwn to Marina Bay n sit in ee station to wait for Yilun to cum...Nel called him n explain ebery ting...After tt we waited for him...We plae lame game n tok laame jokes nahx...To past our tym faster while waiting...

When he reach we walk out of ee station...Euu noe wad?It rains theere oso...Haha..Gt no choice bt to run to e bus stop to take ee bus....Haha...Nt wet lorx...Cos ee rain berii small onlii...We went there eat lerr den we go arcade plae games....After tt iitsh pool tym...Again eberyone except Alex n Guo Rong neber plae.....Haha..Tish tym round eberyone lyk no stength to plae lyk tish all hit berii light...Hmmm...Then ee lame lame hui kit sae alot of lame tings again....Cnt make it der....Haha...Well wee plaed around 2 hrs....Den actualli ii wana go esplanet to see ee count dwn tingy derr...but they don wan...Den we walk all ee way bck to MB ee mrt station....On ee wae bck wee saw yan hua...Hmmm...Berii nice worx....Then ii sae happi birthdae to ee b'dae boii of ee dae...Jie Xian....Haha...Finalli 16 lerr...Hmmm...then after ee yan hua we go bck to MB mrt station to mit up wid ee rest...

So tired....Den we take e last train hm....Den they wanna ton at mac...Den ii stay wid them until 3 plus den go hm....Slp until 12 plus den wake up...Haha...Hmmm...New yr cumss....Shld hab a new target for tish yr bahx....ii Dono lehx...ii onlii noe ii wanna hab a boii boii tish yr...Hehe..HuA Chi...

OKiie nahxx...Gtg...Buai Buai

* XiiAaOo ZzHhUu *

2005-12-30T04:58:00.000-08:00

^*^*^30 dec 05^*^*^
.+.+. 8:57 pm .+.+.

Hmmm....SsOo tiiRrEd....FrRm 2 pluSs plae bb untiil 7 plus den go hm.....Half dead liao....FiirSst tym....After 2 to 3 yrs of inactive....Nw active untill berii tiired.....Haha...After todae dono when will still hab ee tym to plaee bb wiid them lerr....HaiiSs...SsO0 miish them...Keke...

2 more daes....2 more daes he cum bck lerr.....Finally bahSs....Hmmm...Dono shld ii bii happy or shld ii bii sad??? HaiiSs...Dono lehSs....Hmmm...Soo tiired too tink worSs....

Hey ii successfully past moii interview....Guess wad??? Ruyee oso ee same ash mii...OMG!!! Well we juss fated to fight for ee rest of our study life....=X ii tot she wld bii able to study beauty therapy derr...But end up....Hmmm...Same cos n same skol....Pro bahxx??? Hopefullii moii liifee iish much more ezer dere....Pls worxx....

okiie nahxx....ii Stop here lerr...Too tired to tink n write lerr....Buai Buai....

.+.+.Xiiao Zhu.+.+.

2005-12-27T20:57:00.000-08:00

.+. 28 dec 05 .+.
.-. 12:56 pm .-.

Well ii reciieved moii [[ITE]] p0stiin' leRr...GueSs wad??? ii diidnt makKe iit t0 siimeii...nn ii diidn't makKe iit iinto beauty therapy OsSo...ii Make iit iinto Retaiil at BiisShun....HaiiSs....Well juSs Sstudy n see hw loRrXx...HaiiSs...Well Eriic maybii same [[ITE]] assh mii nehxx....But he study office....Haha...Den mii retaiil...Hmmm...

Hopefulli kor kor wiill giib mii eyorh...cos ii promise tt he gib mii eyorh ii will study...Haha...Realli... But iif no eyorhx...Den no study...Keke....HaiSs so siianxx....Nth to do oso...Kao wanting to cry liao la....Haha...so sianXx...Haiss....Well...Wad to do? cnt bii blame...ii gt no one to acc....haha...kkxx....Stop heree lerr..Buaii

.+.+. Xiia0 Zhu .+.+.

2005-12-27T00:46:00.000-08:00

.+.+. 27 Dec 05 .+.+.
.-.-. 4:44 pm .-.-.

Hmmm...Well mii jus cum bck frm SP...ii saw ah wang n zhao hong at arcade...But ii neber even sae a [[Halo]] to them...Dono y oso...HaiiSs...Nw feel lyk slping lehxx...Berii siianxx....Waiitiin for moii post to see which ite n cos ii went....

Jus nw go bck to skol to ask for moii n cert n testi....Guess wad? Mr Siva Sae mii for no reason...He see mii he straight awae sae "Euu tink ii will gib euu eur cert?" Tiish sentence make mii berii blur....I am nt stay in tt skol lerr y don let mii take moii cert n testi worx? After a while he heard ii go ite den tok nicely to mii...Haha...Funni teacheer norhx....

HaiiSs...Gt nth beta to do lerr.....So jus stop here....Well....Hmmm...ii guess there iish nth much to sae lerr worxx.....Buai Buai Lerr...

.+.+. Xiao Zhu .+.+.

2005-12-25T04:51:00.000-08:00

.-.-. 25 dec o5 .-.-.
.+.+. 8:52 pm .+.+.
[[ LeEt m0ii sTt0rRy BeGiiN ]]

-->> Well...FiiRrSsT 0oF aLl....MeErRii X'mAsS 2 eBeRrY 0nE....HwSs eUrR dAeE sPeNt?? iiNn a fUn wAeE 0rR l0nEeLii wAeE?? HwWsS eEuRr fEeLiiN' 2dAe?? HoPe EuRr fEeLiiN' iiSsh gD nW...

-->> WeLl todae...Nth speciial happen nahXx....Haha...Nw chattiiin' wiid Raimi kor kor....Den he complain tt ii neber write hiis name iin moii blog....Lol....Well so todae write a few can bahx...Hmmm...TiiSsh guy of moii....Berii funny n wu liao norhx... Moii blog oso mush include hiss name....Berrii funnii norhxx..... He tired untill chat wiid mii oso blur blur derr....Berii funni kor kor of miine....

-->> Ytd ii went to Orchard den Mariina....Wiid Kok Wei, Chai gek, Guo rong Hui Kit n Nelson....
Well quite fun nahx....Bt ii owaess fall aslp...Haha...Tired mahx...Den untill morning then ii cum hm....pro horx.....Kao tired dao ke yi nehx....Falling aslp soon lerr....hehe.....Okiie anhxx...ii stop here lerr...Buai Buai....

.+.+.Xiao Zhu.+.+.

2005-12-23T07:12:00.000-08:00

.+.+. 23 Dec 05 .+.+.
.+.+. 11:11pm .+.+.

*-*-*PaRrTt 2*-*-*

Nw ii'mM WriiTiiNn' m0ii part 2 derr st0ry 0f ee dAeE leRr....

WeLl t0daeE ii dono 4 wad reas0n....WeLl shld saEe juSs nw bahXx...ii SaEe iiT straiight too moii mummiie....I hAtEe tt ShEeP!!! ii fiind herr ai yan....ii tell mummiie tt ii scared ii kiiled her 1 daee....Den she ask y... guess wad ii sae?

"Y she work gt daddiie to fetch her after work bt mii don hab...N y she work still can spent money ii don hab?" ii saee lerr den she sae one ting...."den euu wanna go hm together mahx?"
Den ii bo pian....Hab to go.....HaiiSs...SuckSs to c herr norhXx....

Nw shee wana uSse derr com...Keep on standing behind mii...ii Hate herr....hate to stay wid herr....Y am ii owaes derr one wu kana thrown at one side?Whan ii work anione bothers to sent mii hm? when ii can anione bothers to cum wellingly to fetch mii after work?

Well ee ans iis NO....No pne cares abt mii....Whether ii eat lerr mahx?Or haben....They don care...Haiis...ii dono shld ii sae ii use to iit lerr or jus plainly feel left out iin tish hse...ii nt gd iin studiess ii noe...So wad? Bth oso ger....Y ee treatment iish different? Heaven n hell ee treatment norhx....

Yesh ii am jealous...Berii jealous....Frm ee berii first dae she was born till nw....Owaess jealous..Owaes hate her....Even feel lyk killing her norhx.....Haiix....So tired...

.+.+.Xiao Zhu.+.+.

2005-12-22T19:03:00.000-08:00

.+.+. 23 dec 05 .+.+.
.-.-. 11:02 am .-.-.
[[Let ee story begiin....]]

Well...ii hab change to anotherr skiin lerr....Actuallii ii waSs tiinkiing too changee to ee Story book derr....Bt ii cnt gett eberii tiing done properlii....SsO ii uSse tiish onee norrhx... Tiish one no gd...Cnt put moii taggiie...Well ii need too waiit foRr moii jiie too onliine den ask her help mii changee to e fairytale onee.....iif nt ii cnt handlee.....

Well tiish skiin ii usiing berii an qiing....No sound derr...Haiiss...too an qiing niiao....CNt stand iit aniwaee....Butt tiish one gd becoSs....Tiish one can see moii pass storiieSs....Hmmm....Soo wo liiao....Btt no choiice...ii gt nth beta to do mahxx....

Todaee moii 2nd dae of da yi max....Wha liiao cnt slp derr whole niite norhx...Stomach berii cramp n paiin...n [[hee]] oso neber call mii for 2 daes lerr.....Haiix...Well...MAybii ii hab to giib up bahx....No poiint of waiiting n he don lyk mii at all....HaiiSs...ii miish hiim berii miish hiim nehx...Btt ii cntt do aniitiing....Hee oso dono....Haiiis....mii zii zuo dou qing lerr...Well ii owaes lyk tiish derr....To [[froggiie]] oso lyk tiish...Too [[him] oso lyk tish....HaiiSs....Wu ask mii ardx...gt nth beta to do norhx....Ben Zhu...HAiiSs....Foreva darr Zhu iish mii lerr....But ii lyk beiin lyk tiish lehx....Nt becos ii wana act cute...Btt tiish iish mii mahx....wad can ii do nehx? Frm ee daee ii waSs boRrn tiil nWw....OwaeSs Sso Zhu derr....

Okiie nahXx...ii stop here lerr....Buaii Buaii

Oh...YeSsh ChirstmaSs iiSsh cumiin' lerr....Sso ebery one...
.+.+.MERRII X'MAS.+.+.

.-.-.Xiiao Zhu.-.-. miish .-.-.Lao Gong.-.-.

2005-12-22T06:07:00.000-08:00

.+.+. 10:04 pm .+.+.

.+. Well ii change moii blog skiin lerr....Change into much moii match wiid moii feelingss derr....
Lyk tiish makee mii feel more comfortable....HaiiSs....Habbiing stomach cramp nw.....Berii paiin...
CoSs 0of tt mens n0rhx.....Kaox....Berii paiin norhx....

.+. Hmmm.....Actualli gt nth to writ but jus cum up to drop smth...Mii cut haiir lerr....Bt gt nt much change norhx....iish stiil der same...Onlii shrter abit....Nt so thick lerr....HaiiSs...Hope tt euu guys lyk moii blog skiin bahx...

.+. Buaii Buaii .+.

.+. Xiao Zhu .+.

.+.+.l0nelii iiSsland Story .+.+.

2005-12-21T22:46:00.000-08:00

.+.+. 22 dec '05 .+.+.
.+.+. 2:45 pm .+.+.
[[Moii story starts....]]

Hmmm....Well..... Fiinally iit hab cums too an end iin e [[N]] lvl tiingy...[[Sec 5]] de [[sec 5]], [[ITE]] de [[ITE]],Retain de Retaiin....Well nw ebery one iissh bz wiid theiir own tiing lerr....Cnt get together lerr....Haiis....TymSs realli fly berii faSst....Mii currentlii slacking at hm n0rhx....Tmr g0 interview pizza hut.....Todae going t0 cut m0ii hairr... Well iish tym f0r mii t0 change for a new haiir style lerr...[[0.o]] Haiis...Cut awae ee paSst n hab a beta future bahx...[[n.n]] ii n0e iitsh lame t0 sae tiish bt juSs to [[an weii an weii zii jii]] bahx... Well miisiin moii friiends iish a c0nfiirm tiing de....Miisiin hiim oSso iish confiirm derr....Well hee saiid hee go for chalet...Soo ii tiish ew daeSs don dare to disturb hiim....Leet hiim go enjoy hiis chalet.... Xiiang qii ee dae wee met each other iish at Chalet oSso....Bec0s tt tym mii n Eddiie stead...Deen Eddie sae tt hiis friiend gt charlet...N ask mii to go along...Den ii go...After tt ii get to noe Hao....HIis first impression to mii iish...[[A guy wus eyes will fang dian]] Realli nahx....Hiis eyes watery derr some more still quite biig...Den he noe ah gerr...Hee fall forr herr bt no confiident too jiio herr....Untiil nw stiil abiit lyk ah ger bahx...ii guess nahx....Bt eberydae tokiing on e fone wiid hiim den [[re jiu shen qing]] lerr....untiil nw lyk tiish so tong ku....Haiis...ii wiil waiit for hiim for e tym beiing after tt ii won noe lerr....[[0.o]] Hmmmm...0kiie nahx....ii stop here lerr....Buaii Buaii....

[[Moii Story ends...]]

.+.+.3.00pm.+.+.
*^*^*Xiao zhu*^*^*

2005-12-21T03:15:00.000-08:00

iitsh jus mii....ii cnt doo aniiting to wan liu last tym de happiness wiid [[qiing wa]]

butt ii juss wann too habb another happiness....

ii no longer wan to bii lonely...

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To euu [[ hopefulli euu noe wu euu]],

Ytd nite ii did sae out moii feeliings to euu...

N euu gt wad ii mean...

ii juss wann too lett euu noe...

ii don wanna break ani brothership between euu n hiim...

n euu did sae be4 euu rather hab friendship den realationship....

ii liistern to wad euu sae...Let eberyting shun qi zi ran bahx....

ii won force...Euu r moii friend todae ish n foreva euu will bii moii friiend

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I chose nt to destroy others friendship n brotherhood....

End up i'm beiing hurt deeply inside moi heart...

2005-12-20T23:28:00.000-08:00

.+.+. 21 dec 2005 .+.+.
.+.+.3:27 pm.+.+.
[[ moii journey start at tiish berii moment ]]

__Tt0daee dee weatherr ntt s0o bad...Abiit lykk wann t0 raiin abiit lykk d0n wanna raiin berii hard t0 wash 0r dry anii clotheSs.

__HaiiSs....Euu n0e wad? Ytd ii went t0 appliied moii coSs ytd lerR....Ash usual ii wiill put beauty therapy ash moii 1st choiice...Retaiil 2nd one....Bussiiness 3rd....Ee reSst...ii aniihw put lerR....Kor kor noee abt iit lerR.....Hee saee tt makke suree ii wiill reallii goo n study....iif ntt wiil bii a wastee off tym lerR....

__Btt ash for mummiie she d0n wanna lett mii g0 s0 farR....Shee saee ii w0n co0mplete ee c0urSse de....Shee owaess lyk tiish de....Pour cold water at mii to makee mii giib up...Bt too bad tiish doesnt helps...

__ii choSsee to study beauty therapy ii would wan to complete iit....Itsh a 1 yr 3 mth courSse... ii would usse up all moii energy to get ebery tiing done...ii wiill....ii w0n wan to let ah yii n jiie n kor kor n raimi kor sii wang...

__Well...All ee whiile tt tym iissh moii fault nt to study wel....Bt at least nw ii'm iin ITE...ii wiill get ebery ting done properly....ii jus wanna pray hard tt ru yee won bii in e same coursse ash mii...ii hab enuf of her...Berii scared....No more....

__Eberydae iish a new dae for mii....Nw ii onlii wan n hope tt ii can get into e courSse....iif nt ii chosse nt to study lerR....

__Haiis...Todaee stop here le...Buaii buaii....

.:. Xiiao Zhu .:. miish .:. Lao Gong .:.

.+.+. 21 dec 2005 .+.+.
.+.+. 3:46 pm .+.+.
[[ moii journey stop here... ]]

2005-12-18T17:13:00.000-08:00

Todaee....Moii [[N]] lvl resultss cumiin' 0ut niiaoo....Ytd ii assk kor kor whether ii should retaiin orr goo [[iitee]]....Hee assk mii too goo straiighht too [[iitee]] n doon wasste moii tymm...Hee saaiid siincee 4 ee passt 2 yrss[iinclude tiish yr] ii gtt noo heeartt too stuudy soo noo usee too retaiin coss ii berii ezz too bii iinnfluence...Soo hee saay miight ash well ii goo nn learrn s0mee handss oon skiill....Betta deen ntth....

Haiis...Soo tiireed too stuudy iin siingapoore noorhxx....Lykk waad mummy saae mii ntt ass cleverr ass moii siista nn moii youngeer broo....For eurr iinformatiioon....Moii broo iish opp dee....Hee gt 150 pluss forr ee [[PSLE]] nn mii iish straiight cutt too normall dee....moii iish 160 soo cntt goo iin [[AISS]] hiis results habben takee waad....For waad saee mii untiil soo niian diing?Even hee cann goo iin [[AISS]] iitss oosoo a laan baan...Soo wad?Haiis....Ashh foor moii siistaa...She oso op forr express dee....Ya nahxx..She gt 180 pluss for [[PSLE]] caan chosee too stay [[NA]] or [[EX]] she iinsiisteed too choosee [[EX]] too makke mii feel ashame....Wadeva...ii too lazy too botherr...

tt biitchh caan doon doo aniiitiing btt ii habb too...Euu nooe moii rmm iish messy agaiin?She iish ee 1 wuu diid iit norhxx....Deen mush waiit for mii too clear...ee fan diirtyy lee....ii need too wash oso...Wha liiao berii dee tiiredd noorhhx....Shee [[EX]] soo wad?Can bii da xiiao jiie....Denn wad for jiie habb too doo so manii tiings?She iish a jc ger nehx...Beta studiies den Biitch norhxx....

Haiix....Okiie nahx....ii stoop here lerr....Buaii Buaii....

.:.Xiiao Zhu.:. miish .:.Lao gong.:.
.+.+.19 dec 05.+.+.

2005-12-15T05:00:00.000-08:00

Bck frm work liiao....Hmmmm...Quiitee tiireed naahxx...Btt trruelii speakiing toodaee dee saless ntt berii gd...

Btt frrm e tymm ii starrt moii openiin.....Jiiu gtt cusstoomeer buaii frrm mii le....Soo moii daee soomeehww....Startted niiceelii.....

Toodaee Laa miian korr korr cum dwn afterr hiis workk too acc mii untiil 5 pluss....Gdd korr korr horrx...Hahaxx....Feell soo luckii too haab tiish korr leehxx....Hee acc mii n makkee mii laughh...N trryiin nt too makee mii fal asssllp deen hee teell mii hee 24 hrrs neebeer sllp....Deen hee starrtiiin to gett sllppy...Deen iitssh moii tuurnn too tryy too maakke hiim awaake...Hahaxx....Allthooughh ntt berrii suuceessful btt stiil okiie nahhx....Hahaxx....Afterr tt hee leeftt n goo hmm...Coos hee taa buu leeii taa haan lee.....Diieiin 4 beed liiao....Soo ii lett hiim go hm....Afterr hee weent hm....Moii tymm pass soo sloowlii....Haiix...Berii siiannx nn wuu liiao noorhxx....

Deen ii coontiinuee too reaad moii chii story...[Yi bei re nai cha de deng tai]Berii romantiic nahx....Soo siian mu ee gerr iinsiide e story....Hahax....ii nooe ii berii de bo liiao....Btt ttiish iish mii mahx...Tiipiical troopiical mii...Haha....

Yahx...Jux nw call moii Laoo Goong....Deen ii heard hiim saee he acciideenntlii bang onn too ee bb court ee polee whiile hee playiin bb....Sobx...Heart paiin worx...Haiix....Deen hiis voiicee berri dee siin kuu...ii liisterrn liiaoo mooree siin kuu...Haiix...Too baad hee stay att eunos.....iif nt ii sure rush dwn dee....Haiix

Okiie nahxx....ii stoop heree lee...Buaaii Buaaii

.:.*xa0 zHu*.:. miish .:.*Lao Gong*.:.

2005-12-13T05:59:00.000-08:00

Hii...jus cum bck frm work...nw chattiin wiid raimi kor....Haha....Quite tiired n habiin gastriic...Haiix....Berii siianx...Haha...Haiix...

l0nely...Berii e l0nely....ii n0 hab steady all of moii own..ohh...yeh....

haiix...Berii de sianx...Well after tiish mth n nxt mth i no longer workin le...berii wu liiao....Haiix....HAha...okiie nahx...ii stop here le...Buai buai

.:. Xia0 zHu .:.

2005-12-12T06:07:00.000-08:00

Hel0.....Jus reach hm frm work....Todae ii miit raimi kor after moii work...Den we went to wach moviie...Haha....Chicken litle agaiin....Yehx....Haha....Hmmm...Tiired nehx....Hmmm....d0n0 wad to wriite nehx....Cos todae nth much happen.....So d0n0 wriite wad...ii nw tired n hungryy....Doni wad to do...Haha....Well haix.....Ii stop here bahx....Buai buai

2005-12-10T05:30:00.000-08:00

Yohx...I fiinalli reach hm le....Frm toa pah yo....

Todae...ii went out too moii friien hse...Den untiil 2 plus go biishun...See moii work placee at where...Hmmm...Tmrr starrt woork le...Hmmm...tonite mush rest earlii....Soo tt tmrr wiil hab more energy too work....

Den after tat ii went to toa pah yo do manicure...Moii friiend de work place...Well....Todae de liife jux pass so fast n ez.....No fan niiao...Soo caref free....Btt still will feel l0nely c0s no stead....All alone...Berii werid de gan jue....Haiix...tt tym gt one ii don treasure nw den complaiin...Mii horx...Haiix..Mei yong de mii...Haiix...

Nw chattiin wiid Adraiin....Haiiz...L0ong no tym neber chat wiid wiid hiim le....Haha jux chat norhx...Siince froggy d0n wan t0 b0ther mii le...Den wad 4?? Torturiin moiiself?ii w0n wan t0 keep moiiself s0 l0nely le....Jux do wadeva ii wan le...n0 b0ther abtt hiim le....Haiix.....s0o wu lia0...Berii wu liia0...Jus lett mii bii bahx....

0kiiie norx...ii stop here le....Buaii Buaii.....

.:.*Xiia0 Zhu*.:.

2005-12-09T02:36:00.000-08:00

Well....ii jus flood Eriick de hotmail by sendiin a e-maiil for hiim too jux somehw sae moii xing shii...Eriic iish moii 4 yrs de friiend.....ii cnt saee hiim ash moii besst friien bt can name hiim under gd friiend...

Well ii fall 4 a guy...Hee...ii dono doess hee lyk mii btt i jux keep berii tiing iin moii heart...Hee att fiirst treat mii ash a friend den jiu er jiu zii...He start to ling nuo wo le...Haiix...berii heart pain de norx...Deen ii gt noo chiice bt too turn too Eriic...

Hee nw at hk soo nt owaes onliine to liisten to moii shu ku...ii tiink he ding dao pa le....haha...owaess hear mii sae....Jiie ii noe euu noe wuu iish tiish bt don sae out kk...ii don wanna haii hiim...euu get wad ii mean?

Well...miish hiim lyk fcuk....oso cnt do aniiting.....ii dono iish he really belong to mii...soo ii didnt bother to force eberytiin...Haiix onlii can an an de care for hiim...ii don wan to be avoided by hiim...Really don wan...

ii doono waad too wriite woorx....

2005-12-08T02:52:00.000-08:00

Helloo palss....Hmmm...soo lonNg nebeer updatee moii bloog lee....Hmmm...Doono n hoow too wriite oosoo.....Hmmm...Okkiie naahx lleets staart frrm todaee morniing bahxx...
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Nov 8,2005 Thursdaee....

Eberii tiing iish per normall....Wake up, brush teeth, wassh facee, eatt bread, Slaack here n derre....Haiix....Usse too bii doiing all tiish too spent moii morniing....Afteer slackiing...Cumm too kor kor rmm...Use com ofb coss...Yaa...Waiitiin forr hiim too bii onnliine....Btt hee woon soo earlii onliine de nahxx....Haha...Btt juss waiitiin onlii....Ntth batta too do baahx...

Hmmm...Todae kor naber goo woork...So hee went out...Den he assk mii too help hiim peii clothes....Doono 4 waad ask hiim hee saee gtt concertt.....Btt ii doono laahx....Help hiim onlii lorx...Haha....Woon diie oso....

Hmmm....untiil 1 pm ii go out wiid chaii gek....untiil nw denn cum bcck....Botth shoppiin gerr...Wallk heere n deere...Haha....Take neo oosoo....Berii xing fuu de gan jue....Haha...Well...Hopefulii iish nt short term happiiness bahx...Iiff ntt berii sadd dee....

Denn....Nw siit dwnn wriite bloog...Hmmm...Cann lee baahx...ii doono waad too wriite lee laahx....

SiLlY mIi....

2005-12-05T17:39:00.000-08:00

I hab been so silly to fall for a guy tat don lyk mii at all...Stead le den sae he gt no feelings for mii....Moi first tym stead wid a guy for 2 daes den i cry....I dono for wad reasons too....All e while..I'm jux silly n ugly....No one caares to bother abt mii....Haha..I shld bii use to iit le baahx...Maybii iin e future wiill use to iit bt nw nt yett.....

Aii yii ge ren zhen de hen tong ku...Noo matter wad lurv to mii sux lyk hell....Guys to mii r owaes a jerk...Hurt gers heart....Useless guy...Tink hw big they r? Iisnt them e same ash us?So wad they hab tat long tiing we don hab? Jus F.N.T as n when they wan?Swt tok owaes swt tok....Sux!!!!!Euu guys realli sux!!!!!

Euu all don care abt hw gers feelings are..Jus do wad eva euu all wan...Haha...I so silly...So silly...I feel moii self dirty berii dirty...I cnt make tiings clear le...I am confuse n out of control...Feel so restless n helpless...Haha...Silly horx...Fall for a guy tat don lurv mii at all....
Mii no use de nehx...gt guys jiu lyk...Haha...Mei yong de nehx....Zhen de hen mei yong...

.:.Piggiemii.:.

Eberitng cleared in moi rm....Finally...

2005-11-28T23:33:00.000-08:00

Helo....Moi Rm finally cleared le...Haha...So nice n so clean....Hmmm...beri long neber hab tish type of feelings le...Haha so relief...Hmmm....Tish type of feelings beri nice.....

Maybii we r habing New carboard n bed soon le...Haha..Hao bahx...Keke....Gd dao diao zha....Haha....I tink i beta spend more tym at hm nw a daes le...cos i interview eberi job at sembawang de...beri near moi hse...So i no need to run here n there le...beri ma fan..N tiring oso....

Haix...Mish eUu worx....Bt eUu nt in singapore....Haix...Hmmm....Beri long tym neber get to mish a guy le.....N tish guy makes moi heart start pumping again....Hmmm....I nw change nth bt moi attitude n moi behaviour le...Up to euu guys to believe or nt...Ash long ash I noe tat I nt becos of anione I change moiself...N i change for moi ownself....Haix...If euu guys don believe i oso cnt do aniting le....

Hmmm...I guess I stop here le bahx.....Nth much to write abt le...Hmmm..Hao mish Jun Yang....Haix...

::Piggiemii:: mish ::JunYang::

Haix....Sad case for moi hp....

2005-11-28T20:11:00.000-08:00

Hi...I'm bck!!!Frm no where....Keke....Pi pa ling ga long ting dong ah....Haha
Well...Todae i go interview job at sp...Mummy sae ish either herbal shop or Pharmacy...End up euu noe wad? Bakery shop...Haha...Haiyahx...Jux ani hw...Wu da wu zhuang lorx...

Hmmm...Ash for moi hp....Haix...Euu guys dono i gt panasonic x400 hp horx? tat one ish i use moi own money buai de...Moi sis drop until horx...Sad case lehx...Heart beri pain lehx....Moi money let her drop...Haix...Might ash well i sell to 2nd hand shop....At least gt money.....Sobx sobx nahx....

Wad to do since i bought another hp le...tat one gib her norhx...Hmmm...Ani hw again lorx...Keke....Haix...habing Head ach nw...Beri beri pain....Sad case nehx....No stead de hou guo...dono hw to take care of mooiself....Hehe..lame excuse horx..Haha...okie nahx...I stop here le...Buai buai...

::Piggiemii:: mish ::Jun Yu=ang::

Bck!!!Frm no where....

2005-11-26T11:01:00.000-08:00

Hi guys...Hmmm...Well todae I wrote for both...Sad n happi de....Now writing sad de....Well eu wan to see happi de jux go to piggieger.blogspot.com bahx....

Well nw adaes Moii taggy hab a funi character...Called I confirm n of cos will get curious abt it de....He seems to owaes lookin' into moi blog....Hmmm...He sae a friend owaes starts frm a stranger...Ya itsh true but....Y i cnt noe whu is tish stranger? I dono ish he jus a passerby or realli moi friend...Hee insist to keep his name ash den I cnt do aniting...Bii it is hee moi friend or bii it hee ish jush a passerby...Well its jux a friend of moi bu si mahx?

Hmmm...Since he wan to bii a stranger in moi heart den let it bii bahx...To mii his still a stranger in moi heart....Know him or nt ish nt one of moi prob too...Well...Sori to bii so straight forward bt isnt it true? I ahb moi wae of living he/she hab his/her wae of living too...Cnt force one...Hmmm....Take kaire bahx...Nth much I can do le....

::Piggie Mii::

Todae....So Sianx....

2005-11-23T19:41:00.000-08:00

I mish the daes I hab a stead....Haha....Nice hors...Nt I draw one...Other ppl upload in Friendster den I "steal" de...Keke....Todae I ask jun Yuan abt moi pay....EuU noe Wad he sae?Mush c e office....Wha kao...I on e spot scold F**** eUu...Nt 2 him nahx...Ish to e Phone....Cox I use msg to him de....Haix...Moi 1st tym encounter tish type of company....Sobx...Nw dono when can take moii beloved Pay le...Haix.....

Todae I whole dae at hm...I neber go work liao...Stay at hm rot....Haha...No la..Ish waitin' 4 moi results....At e same tym wait 4 KFC to call..N ask mii go interview..I prefer to wwork fast food cos itsh more safer lorx....Haix....Nth to do e whole dae...Sit in front of e com....I tink moi eyes confirm one dae will bling de...Haha...Who ask mii ardx...Hmmm...Well wad else can I still do?Hmmm....Sad case...Bt neber mind...I noe I'm strong...Beri beri strong de...Jia you to moiself...Hehe....

Hmmm...Can i complain here?I really feel lyk turnin' to smth or some one to complain abt moi hse tata fat GeGe....Arghx....She beri heng tat I neber wack her todae....Really beri heng lorx...Ask her do tings she don do...Ask her to clear up e mess in e rm she insist neber heard aniting...Den I sae her mahx...."Can eu ans when ppl tell eu do tings mahx?" She insisted nt to ans....What de F***e rm she oso gt stay de...All ober e place de ish her tings...Wads wrong to ask her clear up e mess in e rm? Moii Friends a=owaes sae mii to clear up moi rm...Those wu cms into moii rm de all Sae mii y neber clear up moi rm...I owaes hab to sae tish....

"Ish nt i don wanna clear ish I clear le owaes no use..."Tat 10 or more daes I stay at jie hse I came hm almost die of heartattack ardx...Moi rm ish lyk happen a thief case be4...Beri de messy norhx...I sae to mummy n sae to kor They both sae de same ting..."Wo guan ni Zhen Mer Dou..."
Wha Kao...I really gib up norx...Den Might ash well i don stay in tish hse....Kaox...Moi rm so messy....Really nt for human norx....Her bks, Her bagx...Her rubbish...I really cnt stand it le lorx....Ask her to clear She don listen den owaes expect mii to do mehx?

Frankly speakin'!!!!I'm nt her maid....N e mess ish she make de nt i make...Y mush i bii owaes e one fu chu for moi rm...No matter i gt work or neber work..I still need to clear den her nehx?She can do wadeva ahe wan to e rm nahx...Moi place she oso mess it her place she oso mess it...Wha Kao...wad she wan mii to do?A guys rm ish much more neater den mind nehx....I really gib up le...Ppl wu cms in moi hse nxt tym pls don nag at mii to clear e rm...Cos I'm fed up n I ordy gib up le...

::Piggieangel::

Ish it true tat euU all hate to c mii being a gd ger?

2005-11-23T18:27:00.000-08:00

Hi guys....I'm alrite le...

2005-11-21T14:24:00.000-08:00

I mish e daes when i get to bii so happi...Be it in sp or wid moii one n only god sis....I dono wads e reason for her to change but i stil believe tat she will change bck de....I dono will she get to see moi blog...bt jus wanting to post it up in moi own blog....

"Ah Ger...No one gif up on eu..N on one wish to see eu so bad....Turn bck hao mahx....Don make mii dissapointed n sad k...I will bii still eur jie to turn too.....Don bi so gu zi hao mahx...There ish alot of ppl care for eu...Nt eberi one ish lyk wad eu ting...UNderstand?Tings can settle in a peaceful wae de...Nt ash wad eu ting de...Haix...Listen or nt mish up to eu...cos eur future ish in eur hand....Not in moi hand....So take kaire..Don hab a black record horx...Don do aniting harmful to eur body.....Eu should noe wad i saeing...."

Haix..Sp friends all gone le....Eberi one ish bz wid their tings....No one will go don sp ani more le...Itsh jus a memories in moi mine....They Leave Sp n Continue wid their life le...Hmmm....Nw de Sp beri cold....Nt lyk last tym animore le...So noise n fun...HAix...Eberi one change le lorx...NO one wan to bii young kids ani more le...Neither do i wana to bii...Haha....Okie nahx...I stop here le...Take kaire...

:::Xiao Milo:::

I'm bck!!!!Frm no where...Haha

2005-11-19T14:27:00.000-08:00

Hi ppl out dere!!!Hmmm...nw a daes I recieve too much funny funny tags...Hmmm...Eu guys can pls put name mahx?Only make mii blurr...Aiyo so when eu all wan to leave taggies for mii jus put eur names bahx....Thanks....

Well ash for todae..Nth to sae...Bt ash for moii character i will sae fei hua...So jus ren yi ren when eu all read moi blog bahx...Hmmm....Daes past so fast worx...Nw O lvl going finish le...Haix...I tink ish time for mii to noe moii n results soon le bahx....Bt i dono when nahx...

Hmmm...nw ardx...Nt workin'....Lazy n unwilling to work sianx nehx....Gt commission one...No gd...Ebery one fight for commission...Beri sianx de...No commission de work den nice...All beri friendly....N can slack around oso....Den all can chat n don work de...Hehe...Like bata lyk tish....keke....okie nahx..so bo liao until tish standard.....I stop liao bahx...

Haiz...Forget him Bahz...Should I? Should I nt?

2005-11-18T20:27:00.000-08:00

Should I forget him n continue walkin'?or Should I jus keep him ash part of moi memories?I wanted to gib up bt y moi mind cnt 放弃他的脸?Y mush i torture moiself?

Times flies beri quickly...Now nov going dec soon le...haiyo beri sianx de nahx
dono whether want to continue moi studies or jux go out working...I scared I cnt settle dwn n study again nehx...Den ish like wasting of time in sec skol...If I stay n study at least i no longer wid a grp of bad friends tat make mii cnt settle dwn to study ardx

Haix beri fan nehx...I dono wad i wan for moi future cos I lost moi target n i don wish to find bck moi target le...HAix...I lost moi wae in tish world n i lost e guy i lurv...
I feel so hopless...haix...Sianx...nw lyk all by moiself no friends...nth...Haix...

Once i tot moi friends will treat mii gd bt end up...They all left mii when dey dislike mii..haix...Hao wu zhu....hmmm...okie nahx...I stop here le...Buai Buai...

<< I cnt let moiself accept other guys other den him >>

2005-11-14T16:35:00.000-08:00

Hmmm...Todae neber go work...Slack at moi Ah Yi hse...I still cnt forget e past...I tot I already hab forget eberi ting le...Bt I was wrong...Totalli wrong le...I am all e wae lyting to moiself...Lying to moi heart...Todae I msg Xiao Matt..N ask hw ish he...He sae he ish fine...

N i end e msg wid him le...I dono whether I will still mish him...bt I noe I cnt forget our past...E happy daes n sad daes e daes we get to work togather...I cnt forget his face...E serious n smiling face...I cnt make moiself stop tinking of e past...E wae he tok...E wae he smile...E wae he show care n concern...He wae he ish angry...He wae he hug mii...

Y mush I ting so much when he don wan to bother abt mii?Haix...自做多情...So naive....Okie nahx I stop here le...buai

Todae ish e last dae of her funeral...

2005-11-09T04:13:00.000-08:00

Hi...I m bck again...Ah ma Left le....Nw really left le...Moi mother n Ah yi dey all cried...
Haix...Mei ma de hai zi xiang ge zhao....Haix...Nw r dey grass or r dey still a xiang fu de
ren?Everyone drop their tears...Bt truely speakin' whose ish real one n whose ish fake
one...We dono...Up to them bahx...She left le....So there ish no point for them to act le...
Moii 2 Jies n Ah toy Mii n Moii sis n younger bro cried..Moii mum n Ah yi cry until beri
sad...

Faint de faint, shout de shout, cry de cry....Haix...Bt I only sae one ting in tat place when
ah ma was goin to huo hua...I said tat I wan Ah ma...Itsh true norhx...All of us mish her
Realli mish her...We feel sad for her cos she was our ah ma....Bt nw...Haix...

Well,Truely Speakin'...She look beri qiao chui....Haix...Maybe becos she ish dead le bahx...
okie bahx...I stop here le...Buai Moii Ah Ma...Rest in Peace Bahx...

She left us le...@ 6 am todae...

2005-11-07T14:30:00.000-08:00

She stil decided to leave us todae @ 6 am...So sudden...She didi nt tell us aniting n jux leave
le...Haix...We cnt help it too... We rather let her go den forcing her to stay...We don wan to c
her suffer le...Itsh enuf...Yah...I confirm cry de...No more ah ma take cane n run after us le...
No more ah ma telling us story le...No more last time memories le...Everyting jux fly awae
lyk e wind...

Haix...Time past so fast...So fast...Haix..No matter hw strong am I...I will still drop tears...
I jux cnt help it...When eva i ting of it...Moi tears will drop...Tish ish moi first time...Moi
close one leave mii...Tats y I will feel sad...Well I ash her granddaughter onli cnt pray for her
n blessed her...

I fall dwn le...

2005-11-06T13:23:00.000-08:00

I m bck...Bck to tish sad palace...Where moi momeries r...Jie...or Mikado...If one dae i gone
crazy please help mi update yohx....Next time i recover I will noe....

I m nt prepared for tish...Ash itsh complicated n hard to bi digusted....Jie...Maybe I shouldn't
Hab ask too much...I noe I made eu in troublen I made moiself tink alot...Truely speakin'...I
hab to thank eu,Jie. Thanks for letting mi noe so much of moi Daddy.N i noe y mummy don
wan to tok to mi @all le...I understand Mummy's feelings le....If Mummy don wan to tok to
mi den I won force her le...Ish Okie...I rather see her happy den see her sad...I scared tat she
cnt take it n hab depression...On her face she seems to bi strong bt in her heart...She
ish weak...Maybe I still don understand mummy feelings bt nw i onli can bi a gd gal...Ya...I
noe she gib up on mi le...Bt i hope tat i stil gt yi shi de si wang in her heart...If don hab oso
neber mind...I won ask for her love bt i just wan her forgiveness...Maybe itsh too much
bahx...So hopefully It can be granted...

A happi family behind hab so many sad story..Will eu bi able to continue stayin' in tish family?
A father who owaes care n concern n love eu ish a Bastard will eu accept him?
A mother who owaes so fierce in teaching her child n @e bck she suffers those wanted treatment,wad will do?
Eu ash a child noe so much tings Wad will eu do?
But 4 mi..I m going to hab depression soon....

I guess itsh time 4 mii to bi independent le...

2005-11-04T23:21:00.000-08:00

Ytd,[3 Nov]I n moi parents went to prchard to get bks..N moi sis juz tel mi tat moi paents quarrel le...N wait til moi younger bro finish ns den divorce le....I dono y bt dey hab their own reason bax...N i jux tel moi sis tat no matter wad i will follow daddie n nt mummy cox mummy don bother abt mi when i'm @ e teenage time...Bt I feel bad ash tat time ish I give up care n concern frm them n wan moi freedom de...

Tinkin bck to e time she n daddie care for mii so much...Bt...Aiya I dono hw to sae nehx...I felt so stress up n helpless...Jie sae tat there is a long story behind tis divorce ting de..I oso wish to noe...Bt I sometimes curious n sometimes don....I still considering whether to noe or don wan to noe...To mii, I noe oso no use...I cnt help...I m such a hopless person...Asking 4 forgiveness oso no one will forgive mii de...

I hope tat i stil hang on to e beri last dae....I give up to ebery ting including moiself...I dono hw to control moii mood animore le...Hope i won suffer ani depression bahx...

dao na li zhao hui zhen ai zhao hui suo you yi han

2005-11-02T15:06:00.000-08:00

Tish sentence ish frm 183 Club de song de....I realli dono wads wrong wid mii bt i feel depress beri easily....Without noing y....I reali wish tat moi orince will cum out soon bahx...To heal moi injuries n take care of mi....I noe it won bi so fast but i will wait...Wait til tat dae cums...I noe i shouldnt bi dae dreamin but i juz lyk it bahz..

I lyk e feelings of dae dreamin...At least i can cheer up moiself in a different waes...I dono hw long m i goin to da dream bt jux let moiself slow dwn moi footstep for a while bahx..I reali cnt follow up e footsteps of others..Dey walk too fast le...I cnt catch up...No matter hw hard i try itsh jux e same old pattern...I rather get to sit dwn awhile den continue...Oso don wish to watch so fast...

I cnt see tish world clearly le...Itsh turnin so fast....Haix..Let moiself bi wad i wan bahx...

Moii Heart hab Stop Moii Love Journey....

2005-10-30T12:30:00.000-08:00

I, Ash a writer in moii beri own blog Drop dwn moii beri last Ting tat hab been in moi mind...
I decided to let everyting in moi mind go le..I cnt force tings too happen when it ish jux a small dream tat i wish to hab beri long...Todae,[31 of October 2005] @[12:06 Pm] I suan bu I gib up every single ting in moii life...I wan to start anew I willing to give up all moii dreams n start a new...

I jux dono y I felt so tired....I reali beri tired le....In relationship, In working, In wanting bck a warm n happi family....I guess I hab been askin too much until i moiself cnt make it to real life...I don wan to lie to moiself ani more...Especially moi heart...I hurt moiself n oso let others hurt mi...I hab been fallin dwn until I cnt stand up ani more le...I am too weak to get ani burden le bahx...Moi Feelin'...Wu noes?N wu willin' to understand wad i wan?I guess onli mi will noe bahx...Or rather I oso don understand moiself...Wad i need n wad i don need at all..I dono...

Everyting cum so sudden n leave mii so sudden...I am a human wid blood n heart....Y everyone treat mi as though i am a babie doll?I wanted luv, care n concern...Once I haf it bt end up, I don treasure it n take it for granted.... All hab to blame mii for moii Ren Xing bax...If i m a understandable girl den i won hab to suffer til like tis le bu shi max?Nw noe le n understaand le...Bt it seems to bii too late le...Rite?So no use noing so much when itsh oreadi so late...I dono y I nw wantin' to change moi self? Maybi I tired too long until i cnt take it le bax...

Tings Hab Change So do I....

2005-10-29T19:54:00.000-08:00

Times runs so fast...So fast goin' to End of Oct le...I hab been workin' @ venus 4 nine daes...I Chose to Make moiiself bz n nt to tink of aniting...Indeed I wo cheng gong le...I tink of no one else except slpin...I juz somehw rather feel tat i gt no time to slp or havin' a proper dinner or lunch...

I first time feel so tired everydae after work...No strength to ting of other tings..Nt even tinkin' of havin' a boii boii to acc...Cos i gt no time for him...Wait till i reali settle dwn le den consider abt havin another relationship bax...To mii I don reli trust guys' words ash ebery guy sae e same old swt tok to bluff girls' heart...Once i believe bt end up....I noe ish i'm e one who ask 4 break bt if he don treat miii coldly will i sae break?Ebery ting nw ish moii fault....

I don expect to hab anitin' back jux hope tat I reali can wang le ta....Itsh hard bt At least i use workin' ash a wae to do so...

So Wu Liao....I' Single 4 dono hw long le...

2005-10-27T13:25:00.000-08:00

Haiz...time past beri fast nehx...coming to end of oct le....Haix...Single quite long le bahx....[dui nan ren si xing le]...nw reali [kan po hong chen le] haha...moii cousin lyks to sae tis de....Haiz...

Every dae lyk tis i gettin beri sianx...No boi boi n hab to work until no daes no nite...Haix...Sufferin like siao...Beri de sian nehs...i cnt love or care ani one...All by moi self... I wan moii relationship lyk tong hua...Bt end up itsh a sad ting...I wan moi lifr lyk hui gu niang bt end up?haix...Maybe too much fairytales 4 mii le...Should stay in real world more bahx...Hmmm...I ting nw i treat 5566 more ash moi Stead nahx...

Haha...Beri sian...I don wan to mish him n don wan to look 4 anione le... Jux wan to be bck moi self...

Todae,I felt so Lonely...I tink ofb him again le...

2005-10-24T22:46:00.000-08:00

Haiz...Todae to free @ work le...Until I suddenly start to tink of him....I felt tat his appear ish too sudden n e wae he left mii oso beri sudden...I owaes make moiiself suffer so much until i,moiiself cnt face e truth moiiself....

I guess he oreadi hab one nice n caring stead beside him le bahx....I'm jux a nth to him animore le....[yi dian ye mei guan xi de nu ren....] He won wan to bother aniting abt mii le....Nw ash 4 mii....I feel tat he ish juz a passerby customer....[Stranger] Bt Imade moiiself follow him n made him suffer while I'm sufferin too....

I tot i hab totalli gib on eberyting between mii n him bt end up....I'm lying to moii ownself...Maybi i jux wana make moiiself more comfortable bahx...Bt too bad todae i get bck all those feelin' tat i hab suffer last time...Hmmm...I admit tat i was e one wu wanted to leave...N nw I'm e one wu ish sufferin more then he do....Wo xiang dui ni si xing ke shi wo zhou bu dao....

I'm so tired....

2005-10-22T04:41:00.000-08:00

I'm tired nt becos of aniting....Is plainli becos i just finish work....Arghz...Beri de tired...Haha...Nw no brain to tink so much of those lurve lurve ting niao...All focus on moii work.....Keke...

Nw mii workin' @ Venus...@ Toa PaYoh de....Okie nahx...Tat place mahx...Nt bad nahx....Sometimes beri stress n sometime beri relaxin'....

Hmmm...Abt moii own tings ardx....A.....Nth much to tok abt nahx....Same old pattern norhx...Tats wad i can sae onli....Haha...Okie nahx i stop here le...

Single n Free...Bt end up fall sick...

2005-10-15T09:30:00.000-08:00

Hmmm...Kind of being beri sianx tis few daes... No place to go.... Nth to do oso.... So slack at home.... Tis few daes beri de sianx... Onli todae gt someting to do.... Mii go k box wid moii cousin, connie n moii buddy, mikado... Wha.... beri de fun nehx.... Crazy in e K box... Haha... First time i feel so free n happi... Todae Quite Hiper active norhx... Todae nt at hm again le...Haha...Mii staying at moii ah yi hse nahz... At least beta den staying outside wid friends bahx? Keke....To mii nw no matter wad i will continue to be whu i am...i won becox of him do aniting to moiiself de ash itsh beri de silly norhx...He wan to Be so Hen Xing to mii y mush i continue to do so mani tings for him? I won be so hen xing to moiiself de....I nw noe wad ish setting moiiself free...So fun n happi...Well can sae i long time neber be so happi be4 le....Realli...Feel so relax n wonderful...Can plae ash mush ash i wan n wish for....I wish tat moii daes can continue to be lyk tis everydaes....No matter of wad matters...I wan to use wei siao lai dai guo...

I gIb Up Le...(_)

2005-10-14T10:48:00.000-08:00

I reali gib up le...I break wid Adrian le...N i can no longer hab Froggie ash moii Friend Le....I mish euu....Euu noe mahx?Ytd I use a needle to hurt moiiself jux becos of making moiiself realease tat i cnt get bck beri ting once i throw it awae...Jus a one more chance to eu beri hard mahx?I noe i hab hurt eu...I noe i hab done wrong le...

But...y?Y i still need to suffer tis bu pi yao de tong gu?Y?Anione can let mii noe mahx?I'm confuse...Y other couple can hab a happi endin bt nt mii?I don need pain...I wan care n concern...I cnt msg eu...cnt see eu,cnt call eu...Nian dao we cnt even be a friend? I cnt be compare to TXXXZ bahx tats y eu wan to treat mii like tis bahx?I hate loneliness bt eu insist to gib mii loneliness....I am nt a vase or toys for eu to throw awae or play mii when eu need....I am nt!!!

I bErI HeArT BrOkEn...

2005-10-13T18:23:00.000-08:00

Wad hab gone wrong wid mii n moii life?Everyting seems nt goin rite 4 mii to walk...I wan moii life to be normal n ez to walk bt end up its a different story...I beri Sianx...I lost him bt i hab another him...

I trying to giving up both side ash i ting ish unfair....to mii n him..wad should i do?I cnt hurt others...i cnt play wid ani feelings...I am owaes hurt....

Y?Y mush it bii mii?Idono who ish true to mii and who ish real to mii...I am confuse...Reali confuse....

A bEsT wAe To RuN aWaY...

2005-10-13T13:13:00.000-08:00

He msg mii tis morning...5:35am...We ended our friendship n relationship....He saed tat i treat him unfairly...Den e waes he treat mii fair mahx?

He don wan to care n bother abt mii....He alwaes blame mii for e cos of every quarrel...Y he don tink twice on himself?His behaviour?I'm nt trying to blame or sae him...Bt did he reali went to tink be4 he blamed mii?The ans Ish NO!!!He ish owaes rite n mii?I'm owaes in e wrong...Moii temper,Moii Attitude,And moii Jealousy...All moii fault bt nt his...He saed tat i treat him ash moii replacement....

Den wad if i tell him e same ting wad will he tink?Who will treat his/her bf/gf ash a replacement...Isnt it a unrasonable wae to avoid mii?Might ash well he sae he don wan to be moii friend beta?But in e end he still sae le...He don wan to be moii friend le....Wadeva it ish he jus treating mii n moii love ash a toy...Throw it awae once itsh old....I regret for letting go of tis relationship with him....

I mish e happi moments together ash a group...

I'm Sorri...Adrian

2005-10-12T18:51:00.000-08:00

I'm here again...juz cnt stop moiiself from writing another diary for todae...He ish sad...I noe cos he ask mii a question..."if eu were mii hw ish moii feelings" Tish sentence jam moii mind bt i still tell him moii ans...We are together bt e problem lyes on mii nw...i Neber gib him moii 100% lurfe...

i try moii best to give in everyting bahs i am waiting for a empty ans...and i don wan to a wait for anyting when there isnt ani ans for mii...I'm playing selfish he too...but innocent de shi adrian...since i chose to stead wid him den i hab to give up eberi ting tat don belongs to mii nw...I lost him bt i jux don wan to lost another one

I can rely on eu deepli mahx?eu can gib mii happiness but nt loneliness mahx?can i trust eu?

Breaking up isnt a funny ting....

2005-10-12T14:27:00.000-08:00

8 sept, the dae we break up le...everiting happens so fast until i, moiiself dono wad had happen in between...Losting tis relationship ish nt wad i wish for....n ish nt moii plan to leave him..

We jux cnt put ourself in each others' shoes...we only cares for ourselves...i hab done wrong in controlling him n saeing him treating mii unfairli...but i ting now is both of us ish treating each other too unfairli le....

Do eu understand wad moii heart ish tinking? Everyone blaming mii for being unfair to eu den who tinks of mii?I'm selfish but eu don bother or care abt moii loneliness...wad can i still do n sae?I jux hab to admit everyting and Eu?Treating moii waiting ash nth...Eu sae eu r considering bt to moii eu r jux avoiding....

If there's no trust between e both of us y should we continue to waste our time...eu can go bck to her n i can jux set moiiself free from everiting...i won burn e pictures bt i will continue to keep it hoping tat there will be a dae i can call eu HuBbIe again...I mish eu...N i swear tat I lurve eu no matter i stead wid who....I swear...